Perchance to dream

It has been one of those days. It started well enough with a fond farewell, but went downhill pretty rapidly. I have been tired a lot recently, dunno why, maybe it is the stress, the uncertainty,my job,my home scene, the urge to start drinking again which thus far I am successfully resisting, but no I know what it is, it is the foreknowledge of the unpleasantness ahead.
I hate to hurt people, I suppose that's why I do the job I do.... I will go out of my way to avoid hurting them, even at the expense of my own happiness. Right now I have to hurt someone....I am not looking forward to it. The only comfort I have is that I am hurting them for something I really believe in and something I feel really matters and means something. I just hope it doesnt all end in tears, I am getting too old for this and as my father once said to me, "you are fast running out of last chances".