Darkness falls

Winston Churchill called it his "black dog", I'm not sure I have a name for it, but I know the doctors call it depression, whatever it is called I have had it for quite a while, I think it began very early in my childhood with the first of many rejections which left me vulnerable to pretty much anyone who would show me any degree of affection or acceptance. Well recently I have had a respite from its grim grasp, but I guess it found me again and the heavy feeling inside is returning and reclaiming its hold on me...... I had dared to begin to believe that this time I had really escaped and that this time it wasnt going to come back.
I hope it is only paying a short visit and isnt moving in again.